Not even prayers could save us ...

Almost 3 days straight without sleep . I went for Pooja today . So long and i finally got the chance to speak to Amma . && about what i spoke about to Amma is just between me and her . I didn't have the mood to eat today . I ate but then during my walk , i puked :( Sobs . I'm thinking so much . Sigh , i miss everything about us , everything about how/what we used to be .
Today i feel cold , cold without you . But its ok . You got another girl in your life , i don't wanna ruine anything . But who are you hurting ? You're hurting everyone or isit the other way'round ?

If i could chance your mind
how would you want me
would you say you need me
cause i need you now

If i could change your mind
how would you hold me
would you stay forever
or just leave me here to drown

ps: Are these tears coming cos i'm hurt ? or isit cos im happy to see him happy when deep down i wish i never knew him but i did && he changed my life .