Would you say you need me ?

I tried , i stopped . But you just had to talk to me . Do you think by doing this would help me move on ? I tried . Do you know how much courage it took of me to text you back ? I could've ignored your messages . I could have but i didn't . I did my best to leave you . But your perfect ways have got me asking why ? You didn't have to tell me you were worried for me , how much you cared , how sorry you were . Just stop texting would probably be the best answer from me . && thats what i did . But u had to come back , to talk to me . To do what was needed in getting someone back but you don't mean to . You just had to hurt me over and over ... again .. Isit fun to you ? See me grieving over someone special that i've lost ? You're happy but am i ? So what if i've met someone new ? He's a friend and only a friend . Do u think im like you ? To be able to forget a fucking 9month old relationship and go for someone whom u dated for 1wk and in return she didn't love you but yet you still go for it and decided to go ! You had to contact me , you had to talk to me ... I feel as though i'm being used by you ... to make you happy ,to talk to me when you don't have anyone else to do so .. Huh ? Tell me what isit that you want from me ? I did all that i could to fucking keep a distance from you .. What have i done to deserve all this ? You're always pointing fingers at me not realising there are three others pointing back at you . You'd always tell me maybe you'll come back.. but not now ..So what ? Do i look like a toy to you ? a spare tire ? when u got no one else to love you come running back to me ? What if i did that to you , how'd you feel ? You don't have to tell me you're worried for me and for me to take care . I shouldn't be the one that you should care for at the mean time .. Take care of your new girl .. It hurts to see you apologising but you do nothing when deep down you know we love each other still .. I've been through this game azri .. and i know how it feels ! What does a playboy know about feelings since you claim you know ... huh huh huh ? Tell me ? For all this , i had to pay nothing but sleepless nights and tears that aren't worth the cry ! By doing so , i've already damaged myself physically and mentally . Is this love to you ? Tell me ! When all you know is , giving up and all the fucked up thoughts that you've got . How long do i have to suffer from all this ? Are you hurting me or yourself ?