Pooja

I came with washed feets and a clean heart to participate in Amma's Pooja this evening . The melodious chants were absolutely beautiful . I got myself ready to great Amma in a worship position . He smiled as he chanted his verses to serve the needy's for tonight . Soon as the trumpet asound from the front row of ochastra , my heart started to ache . I started to think of Azri , i teared unexpectedly but with a smile spilled across my face . After the end of the melodious chantings and puttng Narayani to bed , it was time i collected holy water from Amma . The speaker announced that today Amma will talk to anyone whom asks him questions ( which he normally doesn't ) . I qued up , i had a million questions to ask and seek advise from .and all i could ever thik of was praying for azri like he told me to. but i rejecetd azri's request .Everything i had in mind was "azri" was to bles him , was to let him lead a better life. cos he doesn't deserve whatever thats happening to him. Instead i took a deep breath and looked Amma in the eye and said thank you after getting my holly water . I realise , i had ignored what i wanted to ask from Amma .
Tomorrow is another Pooja i be attending THE HEALING SESSION .Dang! and i gotta be vegerterian for a day plus tomorrow will be a full moon . Grr . Healing pooja tomorrow . Alright , i lasted 48 almost 50 hours with no sleep . So nightevery one .