I'm as angry as a bear .
I'm as sad as a widow .
I'm as happy as a sparrow .
But dull like a willow .
I was fooled by a fellow
but merely could i follow .
I was foolish ,
i thought i played smart .
Well ,
Not so fast after i fell for a bad tart !

I tell you i fucking piss ok . Now i'm not even able to smile anymore . Its like as though i lost a few muscles to make me smile . I know happy pill . I need to chill , i should isolate myself from the world . Perhaps its better for me that way . I wanna M.I.A from everyone .

Finally i got my first message from him .
Well , sorry love for being so anal . I just missed you , i thought u could've been mad at me for something . I won't get you wrong . But i have been really upset for the past few days and don't you fucking hell bother telling me " If u find someone better than i do , then go okay . " I know i deserve better but , why can't you be the one to provide me with my needs ? I hope you call back . This whole world is cruel . I wish i was never even born . Save me pls , somebody ?