Everything that i could think of right now is you

I really wish you'd appreciate the people/things around you. I really wish you do . If you keep asking me to help you change but you yourself refuse to do that little part of becoming a new leaf . I can't help you. Cause inorder things to change, it starts from oneself . Its the little effort that you do can help you with yourself . Since you like being all fanatic , does it really bring you anywhere ? Asides from hurting someone and always getting yourself in fights. You really need to do some soul searching by yourself . You'd probaby think all this is crap and you wouldn't care. But one fine day , you'll realise that the people ( put aside ure brothers ) are all trying to help you . Having friends as gangsters whatsoever, do you think its worth your living ? I'm very sure that you don't want that right.Yes ,they may be friends. The reason why they only friend u and you guys carry a good relationship is cause you guys have the same interest. Why others say you're a bad influence. Look at yourself. Really, look at yourself ! I'm sure people have their reasons for thinking this way . Just like how i feel you are very stupid in the way you deal with things . So heart breaking to watch you going through this whole phase . You just had to spoil everything . I tried helping u as much as i can but instead im always getting " you can't help me " wth right ? Look at the messages we once sent to one another during our earlier days ? I gave you my word . I'm really upset/hurt/disappointed. Any kind of sad feelings you can think of .
Sigh,i really don't know what to do. && probably after reading all these ? You're just gonna say " stop wasting your time " .. Maybe i should .. right ? Stop wasting my time ..